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The Mirror Experience.

March 16, 2017


"The world is a mirror for us, whatever you say about others is really how you feel about yourself."

-Deepak Chopra


A few weeks ago I was experiencing a rather unpleasant altercation with some people in my life. In the past I would have clung to a side of either "right" or "wrong." Where I am consciously now is in observation of my surroundings, physical & non physical. Remarkably instead of reacting as I would have in the past and seeing them as "wrong," trying to justify my "rightness." What began consciously coming into my awareness was a noticing of all the things that were happening and being brought to attention in my life. Events, circumstances, situations & things that were wanted and not. This perceiving awareness arose in me a false illusion that the perceived issue I was experiencing was because of these external people and circumstances. 

Though what was quickly brought to the forefront of my awareness was that all the perceived letdowns, disappointments & judgement were all just reflecting back to me aspects of my own inner reality experience! It was reflecting back to me the way I used to feel about myself and how I used to choose to speak to others about my life experiences. This awareness was inspired by learning how to shift my focus from complaining to celebrating!

It's important to note that the way people perceive us is really none of our business because every single person has a unique perception of the way they perceive their life experience. No two peoples experiences are exactly the same. However it is our business to know what we are creating and allowing into our life experience. 

I learned from Mama Gena and practice daily with my Sister Godesses how to brag, how to express immense gratitude, and feel & express what it is I truly desire. This is actively teaching me to celebrate what IS in my life and to not judge it and to put my focus on creating experiences that are pleasurable and uplifting rather than low vibration and draining. To appreciate my emotions and to place awareness upon how I am creating my days. Merging as harmoniously as possible my emotions, thoughts & actions. Consciously choosing to become a living walking portal of divine guidance. To appreciate being. Being that is accepting of all possibilities as an awareness and acknowledgement of the whole. 

I noticed how people's perceptions of me were not really my reality at all and so I had to take a look at myself and own up to true responsibility that I have complained far more about my life than I have been grateful and in celebration of it. And now that I continuously own up and take responsibility every day, even on the harder days for my own pleasure & happiness just by choosing to express whats inside everyday, my vision has expanded rapidly in recognizing all the miracles that are happening CONSTANTLY! 

I am blessed to be in this position in my experience. To have the awareness to know that I was playing the victim of my life not the heroine. I am learning to constantly surrender and be easier on myself and to love and respect myself more than I ever have & in that love and respect of self comes a deeper connection and awareness to my place in and as the whole.
I am expressing this to you today because we are all faced with this choice. We teach best what it is we most need to learn. It is because of our individual I AM awareness that more space for awareness on this planet expands and grows and begins to spread.


For we are all stars in an endless universe and we all make up the whole. 

We really are all here helping one another discover ourselves. 

I feel the goal of the human race is to experience an integration point. A place of total acceptance of the value in the negative and positive. The dark shadowy aspects of self and the light. To be able to experience separation and awareness of self while still being intimately connected to the innate thread that connects all of us.

I am truly grateful to share this experience.
Thank you for sharing this space with me. Choose how you will show up for yourself. Start consciously choosing your experiences rather than having them choose you. And have the courage to love and celebrate yourself more than you ever imagined. 






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