March 6, 2017

Is it possible to change our hearts?

  Well yes, it is now with the new technology we have developed. We are now able to use our devices to dive deeper into the body and see what we could not before. There are many ideas from ancient text that has shown us that the heart is the center and they have treated it as the most important. You do not hear about any other organs in ancient traditions to be the catalyst to our being. Its always the heart. I have been following groups like The Heart Math Institute who has discovered that the heart has functions that we were not aware of in our science and medicine. Now we are starting to understand the meaning that ancestors spoke of. Here are some text to show how each culture focused on the heart. 

Koran: “He it is who supporteth thee with His Help and with the believers. And (as for...

February 27, 2017

To start off I would like to be honest today. It is a rough day for me mentally and letting go of anything seems impossible.  Even typing this email my ego is wanting to stay in the feeling of frustrations and anger. I just did a small meditation and it helped but the ego is an asshole. I am now CHOOSING to remain in a positive place even though I want to burn this entire world to the ground. won’t solve anything because I will still have my mind to battle as I am floating all by my lonesome in outer space. If my day is this way then how many other people are battling the depths of their mind? Well if you find your swimming in an abyss of shitty emotions, then take some time out to read further. The steps I have listed to get yourself into a better feeling is what I am going to be practicing all day to remain far away from total...

February 13, 2017

Who doesn’t want to heal their life?

  As a Licensed Massage Therapist I have worked with many types of people from all types of ailments and found out all have one thing in common. High stress due to what most say, “it's just life. Life is stressful.” I have a medical and sport rehab massage therapy practice and the goal is to educate. I assist my clients in understanding more about the human body. If I can show them how to expand their imagination and give them insight into their body, then we can bring awareness and change. It is so rewarding the amount of clients I have that apply the knowledge to their life and do see change. When I received my education on the human anatomy I was blow away. Then immediately pissed off!  I was furious, because this should be taught in all high schools. In depth not in a fragment of a semester. So I wa...

February 6, 2017

Life is not like a box of chocolates

Has life gotten in the way of your happiness? It always this or always that! Well dammit when do we get a break? Over the past 6 years I have really started to awaken to my inner self and what I am finding is... Reality is NOT what you think! In our new science and technology we have discover many things about our world that has been unknown to us. We now know the Atom is constantly in motion, moving in and out of multiple dimensions all at once. What does this mean considering we are composed of atoms? Well truth be told. We live in all dimensions at once. Our vibration determines the reality we experience. Think of it this way... in Music the key of C can only ring another C which is in harmony. You don't even have to touch it physically. Just strike one and they will all ring in unison. This is the w...

January 30, 2017

This past weekend I attended Mama Gena's School of Womanly Arts Experience 2 day workshop. For anyone who doesn't know of this Courageous Fierce Force known as Regena Thomashauer (Mama Gena) she "is a revolution: an icon, teacher, author, mother and one of a handful of pioneers on the planet researching the nature of pleasure and dedicating her life to the discipline of pleasure and fun. She believes that women are the greatest untapped natural resource on the planet, and after attending her workshop I truly believe her! 

I was part of the attendance of 2,000 women at The Jacob Javits Center on the weekend of The Famous Womans March. 2,000 women ALL in alignment supporting, accepting & uplifting each other regardless of our political beliefs, ethnicity & religious backgrounds was truly comforting and empowering! I've never experi...

January 26, 2017

Sometimes You Have to be Brutal

It was about 6:34 pm and I was asked "When you say you deal with your ego, what do you mean?" I took a deep breath to gather my thoughts. I stated "Brutal Honesty!" She asked "Honest with what?"

"Well, myself. I am in a constant state of questioning my thoughts and actions. I weigh every thought with the question, Why?" She then stated that it must be so exhausting.

 This seems to be everyone's answer to the idea when I explain to them what I am attempting to achieve. I asked the lady if she would rather live a life full of anguish and torment from mental and emotional discontent? Or deal with the fear head on and deny the ego any chance to become that full grown beast. She stated what everyone say's "Well yes of course I would deal with it."

  This is where the brutal honesty part comes in. Most say the...

December 28, 2016

The other day I found myself unable to turn away from a video of a mother and her 2 year old son covered in ash, dust, and blood after being bombed while sleeping in their beds in Syria. The 2 year old boy wasn't even crying, he just sat in shock engaging his hands together as what I believe to be his mother, wept in agony besides him as all her other children were lost in the disaster. I was at work and had a break, and seconds after I watched the video one of my amazing coworkers came and sat next to me and shared a video of a 7 year old girl getting pampered at a spa with such joy in her face, and light in her eyes... and I lost it. I completely broke down as my coworker held me to her chest. I felt helpless as I watched this video. I wanted to take those children and hold them the way my coworker held me, and tell them that everything...

December 18, 2016

It's been 8 weeks since I delved back into A Course In Miracles. Through the years I was always hearing from the people I enjoy learning from speak about what A Course In Miracles taught them. (Now, I say taught but the real meaning is a reawakening.) On the bottom of the cover is written: A Foundation For Inner Peace. Every person has explained through references of the book, that if people would apply the teachings from the book into their personal lives, there would without a doubt be more peace in the world.

It seems now that humanity, in our false perception of it, is a far cry away from world peace. Humanity is upset by the horrors, and angry at the division. Separation is what created this whole mess in the first place, & we are angry at the constant division! But it is precisely why we need to cultivate & uncover it by l...

December 16, 2016

 How deep does emotion grow within each person? This is endless and Doctors or mainstream Scientist have no clue on how far inward the soul travels. We are as far expanding as we are deep within. One person can love a spider and another be deathly afraid. Its not the spider that makes them feel this way. So why does one choose to fear? This is usually stemmed from an instance where they were hurt or uneasy, maybe even startled. This can be anything really. Its all on how they person perceives it. Everything created is a replica of steps Source took to become self aware. Its life all around that takes this form, because Source is this form. To understand lets look at a tree. When we look at a tree we notice how tall and wide the tree is. Most don't think or have the perception to see how deep the roots go. Its always face value when it com...

November 14, 2016

  In all the emotions we are experiencing I came into myself, merged with my consciousness and allowed what is here, within, to be. Full Moons are notorious times for letting go.. and this Super Moon is sure assisting us in big ways. I've been witnessing my judgement towards myself towards past memories that came into view on the screen in my mind over the past 2 weeks. Rather than suppressing, repressing, or distracting myself... I've been feeling the judgement, the shame, the ridicule, the fear and I ask for help from the ones who walk beside us to assist in my surrender through to compassion. There are parts of myself that I can judge and condemn forever because that is what I have practiced since a young child. Practiced thoughts gain momentum quickly via the help of The Law of Attraction. But these days I am seeking the pathway of su...

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What does it mean to be self-aware? What does it mean to be conscious of every thought and emotion? There is a universe within your body and you already have the answers. Understand, you are a master of creation. Never forget that!


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